Friday, October 14, 2011

The Bar Scene

I don't really go out much at all anymore and I'm perfectly ok with that. I love/hate thinking about the going out heavy period in my life. I hate/hate thinking about the times where downtown or not, I ended up much too drunk and making horrible decisions. What I take away though, are the times with friends, dancing like crazy, meeting random people and feeling young. What I don't miss is feeling like I was pretending to be someone I'm not, so desperate to fit in and such low confidence. I hate thinking that I was begging for men to accept me and deem me attractive. I hope that I can teach my nieces and my future daughter(s) to be strong, confident women. I want them to know that everyone is special and everyone of us has a wonderful purpose and we all need to believe in that. I feel bad for people who pass their early twenties and still frequent bars, and I hope to continue not to be one of them. I don't wanna depend on alcohol to have a great time.


 My new definition of a great time is having a great conversation, playing with my nieces, being around family, and being silly with my boyfriend. I'm only 24 but I feel happy to have my bar days behind me, I like me without the alcohol and I like spending time with people who don't depend on a substance to make themselves more interesting. I'm proud for feeling like I've progressed and have grown in these experiences. What are your thoughts?






2 comments:

  1. You've discovered what life's really about! You really only need yourself and those you love and who love you to make yourself happy!

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  2. Thanks, Karen! I feel like I'm in a good place :)

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