I don't really go out much at all anymore and I'm perfectly ok with that. I love/hate thinking about the going out heavy period in my life. I hate/hate thinking about the times where downtown or not, I ended up much too drunk and making horrible decisions. What I take away though, are the times with friends, dancing like crazy, meeting random people and feeling young. What I don't miss is feeling like I was pretending to be someone I'm not, so desperate to fit in and such low confidence. I hate thinking that I was begging for men to accept me and deem me attractive. I hope that I can teach my nieces and my future daughter(s) to be strong, confident women. I want them to know that everyone is special and everyone of us has a wonderful purpose and we all need to believe in that. I feel bad for people who pass their early twenties and still frequent bars, and I hope to continue not to be one of them. I don't wanna depend on alcohol to have a great time.
My new definition of a great time is having a great conversation, playing with my nieces, being around family, and being silly with my boyfriend. I'm only 24 but I feel happy to have my bar days behind me, I like me without the alcohol and I like spending time with people who don't depend on a substance to make themselves more interesting. I'm proud for feeling like I've progressed and have grown in these experiences. What are your thoughts?

You've discovered what life's really about! You really only need yourself and those you love and who love you to make yourself happy!
ReplyDeleteThanks, Karen! I feel like I'm in a good place :)
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