End of 2016, My son is almost one!

Again, time is flying like nobody's freaking business! I am mom now! Yes, it's like the hardest, craziest but absolutely best thing that has ever, ever happened to me. I honestly feel like the luckiest person in the world sometimes. My baby brings more joy to me than I ever imagined! It's tough being a working mom though, sometimes it just feels like I don't get near enough time with him yet I still need breaks from motherhood sometimes in the evenings or weekends. Sometimes it frankly feels like shit. Some days I just want to declare that I'm quitting my job because my baby is one a baby for like a blink of an eye and I am going to spend every second with him. But I have to work like most people so I try to make the best out of the time I do have with him but sometimes that just doesn't feel like enough. What else can I do though? My mom worked and I don't feel less close to her because of that but it still hurts my heart to think of that possibility. Just like it hurts my heart when he clings to his sitter when I pick him up after work. But, I will soldier on and just try to be the best mom I can. What a year this was been, on to the next soon!

Simple Life Questions

Which 3-5 things are most important to you in life?

1) Family
2) Marriage
3) Pets
4) Our House
5) Career
6) Travel

 Does the way you spend your time reflect these?
Not always, I feel like I could definitely be using my time better.

What part of the day do you usually look forward to the most? Why?
The end of the day to reflect and hopefully be proud of what I accomplished that day.

How does your living space make you feel?
Wonderful/awful. I LOVE my home but I could use a big declutter day!

How many hours per day do you spend feeling rushed, stressed or anxious? What (or who) is causing that?
It definitely varies but more so lately. My poor time mangagement skills are causing this.

What is your favourite place in your house/apartment? Why?
I love our living room because we get to relax there together with our fur babies and it is a nice and decluttered area.

How often do you do things just for fun?
I would say pretty often. Live music, comedy shows, etc.

What activities always leave you feeling fresh and re-energised?
Exercise although sometimes I feel completely exhausted afterwards.

Which of your commitments (side projects, clubs, memberships, etc.) truly add value to your life and which don’t?
The podcast I am starting, my gym membership, my running group. Not sure what doesn't fit into this category.

If this week had an extra day, how would you spend it?
organizing, watching tv, food prep, shopping for some spring clothes.

How good are you at saying no?
Not great but getting better.

2015 ramblings

Only 7 days into 2015, it's kinda been a little crazy so far. We had a NYE party where a tequila shot right before I decided I was too tired to stay up past 1:30 made for a horrendous start to my first official day of 2015. I hate lots of pizza, Mexican food, and sweets and basically whatever the hell else I wanted. We went on a party bus for a friend's 30th birthday party, where shit got a bit crazy. Fist fights, bikini bull riding, and some marital drama (not mine) were all a part of this explosive night. I looked it at as my send off from partying. I drank 7 beers, A LOT for me and the night got a bit fuzzy but I know I had a blast and stayed clear of any of my own drama. And of course I forced Ryan to get me McDonalds, drunk eating guilt followed!

Since then I think we are both ready for a calmer year, getting more serious about starting a family is a big topic of discussion in our home right now. We don't drink too often anyway, but focusing on health makes more sense the older we get. I'm getting near 30 (how in the hell did that happen?) and Ryan turns 30 this year. Time flies, that is something I have a very hard time accepting but nothing will change this fact. My oldest niece will be 6 this year, my youngest 3, and I have to prepare myself for my thirties. This means more healthy foods and less late nights and I am ready for that.

Traveling is also a subject still greatly on my mind. But starting a family and traveling may be more than my vacation days and bank account can handle this year. We will see what I can do to make both happen. Everyone keeps asking me how married life is, to which I reply "great". It is and I'm happy but it's really been a reality check to fully wrap my head around the fact that I am married. It's just nuts, even though I have been with my Husband for over 4 years. I'm still adjusting but having a blast still figuring out life with my partner. I picked a good one.

2014 in Review

This was a big year, mostly because I got married. Also because I traveled to Miami for a wedding and Mexico for my honeymoon. Also, also we got more work done on our home, got all new flooring which made a huge difference. I am very proud of myself for running my second 10k and making great time! Ryan and I also joined a new gym but have been majorly slacking the last part of the year. We had been doing yoga together once a week and i'd love to start going again! Another fun postive thing that happened was Ryan's sister having her first child, giving us our 4th niece. My main goal for 2015 is to focus on finances, family, and travel. And taking a ton of pictures! Oh and also my health, geez I'm so typical!

Elle says.

Elle told me yesterday that you have to love other people and you especially have to love yourself always. Wisedom from a 5 year old. I love it.

These Are The Days

I love my life, right now at the age of 27, I am so happily married. A newly wed still so in love with this person who I just promised to spend my life with. We love our little family with our two little fur babies. I love waking up to these little goons everyday. They give me so much joy. My nieces are honestly my greatest source of joy. Everything they say and do is pure magic. I love that they love spending time with us. I want them to always know how much they have added to my life. They are my three rays of sunshine, I am so unbelievably grateful for each of these precious little souls. They make me want to dive into motherhood. I hope I am blessed with a child as sweet, silly, and smart as these three are. When life can seem so bleak and hopeless, I can't help but feel like I am one of the lucky ones. I've had so much joy and love within my years already. I have a house to call my home and lots of people to love and lots of people that I'd like to help. Life is so short, I think about this all the time. I want to make mine count.

My Wedding

I loved my wedding. I really stressed over whether or not I would be able to enjoy it all but I had a blast. It was just so damn hard to wrap my head around the fact that it was my wedding. MY wedding, I've been to SO many weddings, and this one was mine? What? It went by in the blink of an eye but to me it was imperfect perfection. Some memories I never wanna forgot.

Elle gave me the biggest, longest hug that morning. After that she put her arms behind her back and told me it meant that she loved me "a kajillion" It was easily one of my favorite moments ever, so sweet.

Getting ready with my girls was such a great experience as well. My older sister and matron of honor surprized me with a really cute heart shaped ring dish that reads "Mrs. & Mr." on it, she also bought me my earrings and bracelet and they were perfect. And she made me a chocolate chip pancake, she's awesome. Ryan also surprised with a gift, an engraved photo album that read "The Capranicas" and was full of photos of us. I absolutely loved it. My bridesmaids and I  all sang and danced and even did a chinese fire drill on the way to meet the photographers in my sister's van (we were about 40 mintutes late to meet them! whoops!) They all kept me calm and happy and it was wonderful.

Our first look felt like a dream. I can't even believe it was real life. I was lead by the photographers that I had just met two seconds earlier down a grassy path where my groom had his back turned, waiting patiently. I came up behind him and tapped him on the shoulder, and as soon as he turned around the look on his face was beyond what I could have even imagined. He just kept saying "Oh my God" and looking at me with so damn much love. We both cried and held each other. Trying to explain it is hard, it really was one of the best moments of my life. So much love.

Before the ceremony I was back in an office type room waiting till it was ceremony time. My bridesmads again continued to be awesome and kept the fun going. We were dancing and singing and popping bottles of champaigne. Right before leaving the room to go out to the ceremony we sang, "All About That Bass" together. Lyla also had a funny moment, while we were getting ready to line up she yelled "It is time to do this!" So silly, so fun, I loved it so.


The ceremony was short and sweet and exactly what we wanted. I had tears streaming down my face as my Dad walked me down the aisle. Seeing Ryan at the end was an amazing feeling, I kept thinking, "He's waiting for me! I'm his person and he's mine and we are in this together". Having someone waiting for you at the end of the aisle, someone who loves you so much, someone that you consider a kind, wonderful, hilarious, caring, and just awesome person is beyond amazing. Ryan's vows absolutely knocked me on my ass. I mean, damn, those words he spoke were just simply music to my ears. I couldn't help but cry. I really was truly blown away. Then we got to kiss and walk down the aisle together, holding hands but now as family.

Then came the reception. The Bridal party was announced all wrong but I was all whatever at that point. They all walked out to "Marry You" by Bruno Mars. Then Ryan and I walked in as a married couple to "You Make My Dreams Come True" by Hall & Oates. As soon as we all got up to the front of the room, our wedding party surrounded us in a dance circle which was such a fun little memory to have.

We all had a blast dancing, my Grandmother Ruth again stole the title of "Dancing Queen" as she usually does at all wedding receptions. I also can't not metion that a dance battle broke out between my cousin's 8 year old , Grace and Ryan's friend, Ben. It was hilarious and so fun to watch and of course Gracie won! I will also never forgot all the kids bouncing around, dancing, eating cupcakes, jumping in the photobooth. It was so fun to be surrouned by friends and family for the evening. Ryan and I danced our first dance to "When the Right One Comes Along" by Clare Bowen and Sam Palladio. To me that song is magic, beautiful and simple just like love should be. I was just so thankful and trying to take it all in, which was impossible. I wish I could live it all over again.