I am 26 and it's really hit me in the face. I still feel like a little kid sometimes and I still feel like I'm not the adult I should be at times. A lot of the time I just wanna give up on things that I know I should do, like eating right and working out and being more social. I just wanna say eff it and do what I want. And most of the time lately, I just wanna hide, I don't wanna be seen...I don't wanna be around other people.
I wanna strive for a better life for me and I also wanna be a good role model for my nieces, and if I'm not that then I'm not anything. They are so precious and important to me. They were at my house today and they got to play and I got to fix them lunch. They helped put together a pizza, Elle got to spread the sauce and she kept licking the spoon, and Lyla got to sprinkle the cheese on which she kept grabbing off and eating. They kept using Cooper's doggy door when they wanted to go outside and they played with my old Polly Pockets that I used to play with when I was a little girl. It's so crazy and almost shocking to me that I'm watching a new generation grow up now and before you know it, i will have kids of my own and i'll be watching my nieces interact with my kids! It will be so crazy! I just wish I could slow down and enjoy it more. I wish I could stop being down on myself so that way I could enjoy it more. I guess I just have to keep trying.
