time and effort

Sometimes I feel like I have wasted most of my life. I feel like I could have done so much more with my time and I could have put so much more effort into sooooo many different things. I guess I just need to remind myself that I am only 26 and I have a lot more time and more effort to give! I guess another thought I've been mulling over is what will define my life? Money? Success? Family? Motherhood? I guess I'm still just trying to figure out what exactly I want. I know I want to travel, I know I want to write and read more. I know I want to become a mother eventually. I know I want to keep close ties with my family. I know I want to make people happy! I know I want to be more organized and more in shape. So why is it so hard for me to just "man" up and get a move on it! While I am still young and alive.