I'm a messy person so I like these messy little posts about what's going through my mind. It helps helps me clear my mind and get things sorted out. So here it goes.
Number one thing weighing heavy on my mind is my Great Aunt Ann, she was diagnosed with cancer a few months ago and she isn't doing well. I don't know how much more time I'll have with her so it's been a really emotional week since she admitted to the hospital four days after falling in her home because she is so weak. I have a really hard time trying to picture life without Ann, she has been a vital part of life since I was born. It's been a hard pill to shallow, getting to used to the idea of not having her around for very much longer. I'm trying to stay positive and prepare myself for the what's to come. She is so important to me and I hope that she knows that.
Baby talk, there is not a day that goes by without me thinking about becoming a mother. I've been so back and forth about it and it's crazy to think that i'm at an age where people are starting to have babies on purpose! Haha, I definitely wanna wait till I'm closer to 30 but somedays I just can't wait for that day to get here, other times I definitely can, haha. I just really have a hard time understanding how the hell people afford children, like for real. I know my boyfriend and I will never make a ton of money and I just don't know how so many can just have these babies like it's nothing! I don't have a lot of extra money and I just worry that maybe I won't have the funds to support a family the way I want to. I want a decent house in a safe neighborhood, I don't want to struggle with money. I want to be comfortale. So then I think maybe we can just have A child instead of having 2 or 3, but then I love my siblings so much. I think I'd want my child to at least have one sibling. But then again, these are things I don't really have to worry about right. Just thoughts that cross my mind.
Puppy talk, I love my dog. Like, a lot. And since I don't have babies, he is like my tiny fur son. :) This is week three of having him and while it has been an adjustment, we just can't imagine not having him in our lives now. He is such a sweet little thing and even when he has accidents in the house or does something he shouldn't I just can't stay mad for more than two seconds. He gives us so much love and we just adore him. Pet ownership may be challenging at times and not too mention pricey...but he is so worth it. I'm so happy he is a part of our little family.
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