Things that have been weighing heavily on my mind lately...
I am happy to have my job but damn 9 hours a day, 5 days a week can be just enough to drive a person mad. But I have absolutely no room to complain. Best co-workers and boss that a person could ever ask for in the world and I make money and get to pay my bills and buy my starbucks and a few little fun things. I am lucky but I know I want to make a change in career someday, what that is I have no idea, but I really hope I can work in a more creative field. I wanna feel more like an individual, I wanna continue to find my voice.
Also, I have mad baby fever. I am made to be a Mama someday, I know that isn't anytime soon but I think about having little bambinos every.single.day. which actually isn't a new thing. Almost every night before I go to sleep, I think about giving birth for the first time and finally seeing the baby I've waiting all my life to meet. It's something I want and which feels so natural to me. I just wanna wait till I'm ready, but will I ever really be really ready? I have no clue, I am totally unorganized and suck at saving money. One day I hope to get good at these things and buy a little house with a yard and (maybe) a dog and then little baby will hopefully come into my life. Until then, I have to just be content and keep learning about myself.
That's all for now.
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